We will have to postpone my reconstruction until I finish with chemo. I had my first expansion appointment yesterday and it wasn't bad at all. They fill it with 50mL of saline once a week. It's really strange because almost my whole breast area is numb. They gave me lidocaine before they poked me with the saline but I honestly couldn't even feel the lidocaine much less the 50mL they put in. How weird is that? My muscle does feel a bit sore today but nothing bad.
Tonight I went up to the barn and got to watch Tarra ride Chevy. I brought him in and got him mostly ready for her to ride. I think he was happy to see me. We were joking that he is going to need therapy when this is all over since he keeps getting handed around. I had only had him for 2 months before my surgery, so we were just getting in to a routine. I feel bad that he is getting shuffled around. He was really good tonight and I can see some definite improvement in his trot/canter transitions.
I've had to remind myself today of some of the positives in all of this.
- That this is happening in the fall/winter months. I feel like I would be sad missing out on so much summer fun.
- I have health insurance which goes right along with my job and wonderful co-workers who have been so supportive of me.
- I'm thankful that I have already been considering cutting my hair...now I can get rid of all of my split ends! I've also heard that sometimes your hair comes back in different, like curly, or something fun like that.
- I have a wonderful team of doctors taking care of me.
- I only need 8 chemo treatments, it could be worse.
- I have excellent friends who are riding Chevy for me while I'm out of commission.
- And finally I have wonderful family support.
I'm sure there are SO many more things that I should add but I'm tired and can't think straight anymore. :)